These are troubling times, no doubt. People are afraid…and that is understandable. But let’s not let fear cloud our judgement or cause us to make rash decisions. When I was diagnosed with cancer, trust me, I was afraid. No that’s not right. I was scared sh#tless! But I made it my priority to educate and…
Read more Loneliness and isolation; I’m an expert
COVID-19, the Coronavirus…that’s all anyone is talking about. We are inundated with information. Unfortunately not all of it is true. And what’s worse is some people are panicking which isn’t helping and others aren’t taking it seriously at all. I went out today to pick up some much needed groceries. It’s always a bigger task…
Read more Anyone else feeling vulnerable?
Today is International Women’s Day, a day that is celebrated around the world. It recognizes the strength of women. The importance of women and the power of women. It is also a day that that makes us all aware of the inequality that still exists for women. Did you know: Women earn 23% less than…
Read more We all have a Wonder Woman inside us!
A few weeks ago I spoke to 300 university students about marketing, branding and running a business. I was surprised and very humbled to be asked back again to speak to them last night. They asked their professor to reach out to me to see if I would come back for an hour long question…
Read more I’m an open book…but I’m not always easy to read!
Control Yourself. Alter Your Thinking. Delete Negativity. This is my mantra. It’s what I strive to do everyday. Some days it works…others, well, not so much. Every day is a challenge. Whether its trying to push through the pain of the myriad of things I am dealing with physically; or trying to drum up the…
Read more CTRL + ALT + DEL
I can count on one hand how many times I’ve had a melt down. Ok, maybe two hands…but I am a master of disguise. I have learned to hide my feelings with humour and diversion. I hide my pain, my anxiety and my fear, by poking fun at myself and laughing about the shit storm…
Read more Sometimes I feel I’m losing control
It’s no secret that I don’t like hospitals! As soon as I walk through the doors I get anxious. I don’t like the smell, the sounds and how much time I have spent in them. Don’t get me wrong. I have the utmost respect for all the staff, volunteers and patients that fill the rooms…
Read more The stress of it all…
Last night was a big night for me. I spoke to almost 300 university students about “personal branding”, how to conduct yourself in a meeting, how to gauge a room and how to remain authentic and true to yourself. The audience had no idea the struggles I have faced the last 18 months as…
Read more SPEAK and ye shall find
Most people don’t look forward to Mondays…at least not as much as they look forward to Fridays! I never used to have a problem with it, but for me, Mondays now signify the beginning of a new week… another five days of more doctor’s appointments. Last week I underwent a series of tests after seeing…
Read more I don’t like Mondays…
After seeing my family doctor before Christmas, she gave me a referral to see a rheumatologist. I already know I have arthritis in my back and I receive epidural steroid injections for that, but I have been experiencing a lot of aches and pains. My hands, feet, neck….you name it, it hurts. I am also…
Read more I need to improve my grades from a “D”
We all struggle. We all have issues. We all feel pain…physically, emotionally or both. I hate seeing others suffer; and I have seen a lot in the last 18 months. Yesterday, I saw my oncologist at the Cancer Centre. It is a beautiful building with lots of windows and plants. It’s halls are filled with…
Read more The minute you start keeping score in life you’ve already lost
Yesterday was my long awaited appointment for my epidural steroid injections. They are terribly painful but much needed in order to keep me mobile. I always get very anxious before the appointment as I know what the experience entails…and it ain’t fun! The nurses are always so very nice to me. They tease me, trying…
Read more HEAL? Sorry, that’s a four letter word!
Today I saw my reconstructive surgeon for a follow up after my surgery on December 20th. That was three surgeries ago. Yup, that’s right, I had three surgeries in eleven days. First my reconstructive surgery which removed the long lasting hematoma, excess skin and had a mound revision….followed by emergency surgery to remove gall stones…
Read more So how’s the New Year treating you so far?
It’s New Year’s Eve. Yesterday I underwent a procedure to remove two gall stones lodged in a duct that runs to my liver. They caused me so much pain that I was rushed by ambulance to the hospital on Saturday. Today I had surgery to remove my gall bladder. A two hour surgery that has…
Read more My Michelin Star New Year’s Eve Dinner!
I’ve been home recouping from the surgery I underwent on December 20th and enjoying time with my daughter and her husband who have come for Christmas. Yesterday I woke up not feeling well at all but chalked it up to maybe “over doing ” it a bit. By noon however I had such severe abdominal…
Read more You have a lot of gall…
…he’s going to find out if I’m naughty or nice!? Christmas Eve. Can’t believe it’s here already. It never fails to sneak up on me even though it’s the same date every year! When I was a child, the weeks leading up to Christmas were always exciting and terrifying. I would spend hours making my…
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Blessed to have come through surgery #5. Blessed to be home in my own bed. Blessed to be able to spend Christmas with my family. I have spent the last two days in bed…only venturing to the bathroom and back, which is no easy feat. I have four very painful incisions. One under each of…
Read more Battered, bruised, bandaged and BLESSED!
So I’m prepped and ready for surgery #5. Fingers crossed that it’s my last. I’m battle scarred and ready to say “yes I slay that dragon and won!” Wish me luck and I’ll be in touch soon 🙂
Read more What a way to end the week!
It’s Sunday afternoon. I’m making lists of all the things I have to do before Christmas…which is in 10 days. There’s presents still to buy and wrap. There is the Christmas dinner to plan, shop for and prepare. There’s a lot still to do……. ….and then my phone rings. I look at my cell and…
Read more Would it be alright if I rescheduled Christmas this year?!
…and the dreams that you dare to dream, maybe do come true. Over the Rainbow. It’s a favorite song of mine and my daughter. So much so that at her wedding last month my father played it on the piano as she walked down the aisle. There wasn’t a dry eye in the room. The…
Read more Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue…
Today, I attended an industry holiday event. I have been looking forward to it and dreading it all at the same time. I must have tried and retried a dozen outfits not knowing what looked good on me. Does anything look good anymore? My sense of self has disappeared. I don’t recognize my body anymore…
Read more “I’m good…thanks.” That’s my story and I’m sticking to it
That’s a quote from Mr. Roger’s. You know, the slow speaking, calm, quiet, cardigan wearing man that had the TV show Mr. Roger’s Neighborhood. I saw the movie today It’s a wonderful day in the neighborhood. It is a movie based on an article written about Mr. Roger’s in Esquire Magazine. The author, who was…
Read more “If it’s mentionable, it’s manageable”
Remember when you were a kid and you’d travel somewhere…and the trip seemed to take FOREVER? It may have only been a short car ride but it always seemed to take so much longer because all you wanted was for the car ride to end and the adventure/vacation/visit to begin. In my case, this “ride”…
Read more “Are we there yet? No Patti, not yet!”
Last Saturday, my beautiful daughter got married. Despite the teaming rain, it was the most spectacular day I can remember. She was so happy and I couldn’t have asked for anything more. The wedding has been my focus for over a year. It has given me something positive to look forward to and to work…
Read more Where do I go from here?
Today I am in Ottawa getting ready for my daughter’s wedding rehearsal. It is a very exciting time albeit a little stressful. I have shared my anxiety with you about whether I would be healthy enough for this momentous event and almost as important…whether I could find a dress to wear! As “Mother of the…
Read more The life in front of you is far more important than the life behind you