Cancelled. That was the message I received. My loooooong awaited surgery to remove the hematoma left from my mastectomy and the unsightly bulge of skin under my arm. My surgery was scheduled for this Wednesday but now I have no idea when it will be. When I listened to the message from my surgeon’s office I felt my stomach drop. It was like hearing you didn’t get a job you really wanted, or you failed a big exam or that there is no Santa!
I know that sounds a bit melodramatic but I’ve been waiting for this surgery for 15 months. So when I got the call last week saying they had a spot for me I was elated. Weird, I know, being excited about being sliced open, but trust me…in my world now, that’s a good day!
I am going to have to suck it up and start looking for a dress for my daughter’s wedding. It’s coming up quickly and I can no longer wait for the “bulge” to be removed. I’m just going to have to find a dress that covers that and the scars that run the length of my chest. No plunging necklines for me!
On Thursday I went for some initial tests to determine whether I have developed an ulcer. I had bloodwork and an ultrasound. The technician kept asking me if I had had my gall bladder removed. I have not. He kept pressing and looking.
“Are you sure you haven’t had it removed?”
“Positive” I said. “I’ve had several other things removed, but not my gall bladder!”
“Well, I can’t find it!” He said with frustration.
Seriously, I am not surprised by anything anymore. This journey has been a combination of many ups and downs; highs and lows; progress and setbacks. I try my best not to get too disappointed when things don’t go as planned…but that’s life. No one lives life in a straight line. That would be pretty dull. But right now, I could use a bit of dull and some good news.
President of As You Like It Marketing & Communications Inc. Award winning speaker and author. Breast cancer fighter and blogger. I’m sharing my journey…the good, the bad and the ugly. Hoping to help anyone else that has been touched by breast cancer be it you or someone you know or love.