Monday, the start of a new week. A fresh outlook. A blank page in my journal. How will it be filled? It’s the last week of March. You can feel that Spring is in the air. The sun is shining a bit brighter. The sky looks bluer and I can hear birds chirping outside my window in the morning. OMG I sound like a Disney movie! But you know what? That’s ok. Because I am determined to acknowledge and celebrate everything good this week no matter how insignificant. I need to keep the negative energy that my cancer has caused, at bay. I don’t want to think about my pain, anxiety, stress and fear. Instead I am going to focus on my progress, both physically, mentally and emotionally. I am going to celebrate the fact that I have come a hell of a long way. It hasn’t been easy, but I’m kicking cancer’s ass. It hasn’t and it won’t get the best of me. EVER.
I have been working on a presentation for a conference I will be speaking at in two weeks. I love what I do and really enjoy talking to people and sharing my knowledge and experience. To capture a room’s attention and have people focus on you and what you are saying is an extraordinary feeling. In my previous life, I did a lot of acting both on stage and screen; so having all eyes on me is something I am used to. Transitioning from acting was easy for me. Standing on stage in front of people delivering my message on branding and business development was seamless. The big difference though is that now I am writing and delivering my message versus reciting someone else’s lines. It’s a great feeling and I love doing it. This time however, will be a little different. I have struggled with how I look and feel about myself since my mastectomy. It’s hard putting on a brave face day after day when you are dealing with physical and emotional pain on a scale that I’ve never experienced before. With this upcoming conference and speaking engagement, I am determined to not let how self conscious I’ve been rob me of that opportunity and experience. Since my surgery, I have avoided public events and situations that make me feel “exposed”. I have shied away from anything that would draw attention to me… but that has to change. In order for me to fully heal I need to dig deep and start putting myself out there again. I want that. I need that. Cancer shouldn’t define who I am now. It’s part of me, but by no means is it who I am.
President of As You Like It Marketing & Communications Inc. Award winning speaker and author. Breast cancer fighter and blogger. I’m sharing my journey…the good, the bad and the ugly. Hoping to help anyone else that has been touched by breast cancer be it you or someone you know or love.