Sorry, I Don't Have Time For Cancer

Twas the night before surgery and all through the house, not a creature was stirring….

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…not even a ….Are you kidding me? I won’t be getting any sleep! Any one who says you should go into surgery well rested has obviously never had surgery. Or at least not major surgery. And even though I will only be in the hospital from 6:15 Wednesday morning to 6:15 Thursday morning, this is major surgery!

I thought I was organized and maybe I am, but right now I feel lost. I have a pot of soup on the stove that I need to finish and blend so I can sip it through a straw. I have a last load of laundry going, I’ve watered the houseplants inside and out and tried to tidy up as best I can. I have arranged my post op clothes (baggy pull on pants and shorts and oversized flowy shirts with pockets sewn inside for the drains) on open shelves that I can easily reach as I won’t have much arm mobility. I even have them piled from largest and easiest to pull on to a bit more “fitted” so I can work my way through them as I get stronger. I’ve packed away all my bras, except for the one I’m wearing to the hospital, as I won’t have any need for one for a long time. I have pillows organized for the bed as I will have to sleep sitting up until the drains are removed. I have extension cords in place for laptop, phone, ipad, etc. Freezer packs are at the ready to apply to my sutures and I have a little plastic bucket to keep beside me with tissues, lip balm, Purel and baby wipes.

I’m organized. I’ve crossed off almost everything on my list. So what am I missing?

What I’m missing and am not prepared for is the fact that tomorrow morning I am having both my breasts removed. Yes, I am going to be ok. Yes, the mastectomy will hopefully rid me of cancer and yes I will survive and be healthy and well very soon. I keep telling myself that; and I believe it. I know how incredibly fortunate I am that I have a good prognosis, great surgeons and a wonderful support system. But I guess in all this planning and running myself ragged, I haven’t really sat down and come to terms with saying “boob voyage”.

 

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7 responses to “Twas the night before surgery and all through the house, not a creature was stirring….”

  1. Sue Bain Avatar
    Sue Bain

    And to say “Boob Adventure” to your new life with first no boobs to eventually, as you said, the perkiest boobs for someone your age……let the adventure begin……
    Sending all my love your way XOXO!!

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  2. Marlene Avatar
    Marlene

    Boobs or no boobs, the cancer will be gone! The best is yet to come.
    We’ll be with you in spirit tomorrow, blanketing you in love.
    Mom and Dad

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  3. Janet Zell Avatar
    Janet Zell

    I will be thinking of you tomorrow, Patti, and sending the best positive vibes and good wishes for a speedy recovery your way! Janet Zell oxox P.S. love the fact you are blogging!!!

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  4. Julia Avatar
    Julia

    Patti; Life is beautiful. Regardless of the curve balls that are thrown and regardless of all that’s wrong. Life will remain beautiful once you are back among us. Make sure you requisition a pair of boobs that you can show the rest of us “how it’s done”. We’ll be impressed anyway. Cheers my friend and live to tell the tale. The Babe Club awaits you. Best, Julia

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  5. Sue Bain Avatar
    Sue Bain

    It is now 11:00 p.m. Wednesday – 11:11 to be exact – my lucky number – you have been on my mind all day and as I head to bed, I hope you are resting comfortably knowing that you are surrounded with love –
    I send much love and a gentle hug!
    Sue xoxo!!

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  6. Jennifer DiBabbo Avatar
    Jennifer DiBabbo

    I liked this quote on Pinterest and accidentally clicked on it instead of just pinning it, only to discover that it was related to this. The irony is, I too had a double mastectomy in 9/2019. I hope you’re well and still cancer free. I had many complications after mine. I am cancer free thank God so I’ll never complain but my reconstruction turned into a disaster that I’m still far from done dealing with.

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    1. tatacancer Avatar
      tatacancer

      Jennifer, So happy to hear you are cancer free. I too have had a rough time with reconstruction having undergone many surgeries now and waiting for yet another. I am happy you found my blog….I’m sure there is a lot if posts that you will be able to relate to. Stay safe and well.

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