…not even a ….Are you kidding me? I won’t be getting any sleep! Any one who says you should go into surgery well rested has obviously never had surgery. Or at least not major surgery. And even though I will only be in the hospital from 6:15 Wednesday morning to 6:15 Thursday morning, this is major surgery!
I thought I was organized and maybe I am, but right now I feel lost. I have a pot of soup on the stove that I need to finish and blend so I can sip it through a straw. I have a last load of laundry going, I’ve watered the houseplants inside and out and tried to tidy up as best I can. I have arranged my post op clothes (baggy pull on pants and shorts and oversized flowy shirts with pockets sewn inside for the drains) on open shelves that I can easily reach as I won’t have much arm mobility. I even have them piled from largest and easiest to pull on to a bit more “fitted” so I can work my way through them as I get stronger. I’ve packed away all my bras, except for the one I’m wearing to the hospital, as I won’t have any need for one for a long time. I have pillows organized for the bed as I will have to sleep sitting up until the drains are removed. I have extension cords in place for laptop, phone, ipad, etc. Freezer packs are at the ready to apply to my sutures and I have a little plastic bucket to keep beside me with tissues, lip balm, Purel and baby wipes.
I’m organized. I’ve crossed off almost everything on my list. So what am I missing?
What I’m missing and am not prepared for is the fact that tomorrow morning I am having both my breasts removed. Yes, I am going to be ok. Yes, the mastectomy will hopefully rid me of cancer and yes I will survive and be healthy and well very soon. I keep telling myself that; and I believe it. I know how incredibly fortunate I am that I have a good prognosis, great surgeons and a wonderful support system. But I guess in all this planning and running myself ragged, I haven’t really sat down and come to terms with saying “boob voyage”.
President of As You Like It Marketing & Communications Inc. Award winning speaker and author. Breast cancer fighter and blogger. I’m sharing my journey…the good, the bad and the ugly. Hoping to help anyone else that has been touched by breast cancer be it you or someone you know or love.